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| The dogs of Swift Star Farm |
2012 is circling the drain. It is a time of reflection for many of us.
This time of year is and has been for a long time a difficult time of year for me. My Sister Anne died suddenly at age 24 on November 19 when I was just a few weeks into being 8 years old.
These Holidays, Thanks Giving and Christmas were just never the same in our home after Anne died. Always from that point on, a somber time and a struggle to act "normal".
It also makes me think of my Swift. She was born Dec. 9 and died Dec.14. Some may think it silly that I still pine over that dog so many years later. But I do. She was so young and in her prime. I loved that dog and had such a wonderful connection to her that I hope to find again with another dog in my lifetime.
My husband has a hard time understanding why I get like this. To be honest I wish more than anything to be able to rid myself of the sad feelings.
He comes from a family of five Children and it's hard for him to grasp my feeling of loss at what should be a happy joyous time of year.
I am able to look at all the wonderful events over this past year and I am very grateful for all the good that has happened. Just this stupid dark cloud hangs over me.
Many I know are suffering with loss they have had this past year, be it human or four legged.
We lost my husbands Father this past spring and it seems empty without him this year.
I have lost a few friends and have had several friends loose a good dog.
Still here I am prepping Christmas Eve dinner. Thankful to have my parents both still alive and living here with us.
The weather forecasts for a white Christmas this year. What a treat! I am looking forward to that and I know the dogs will enjoy snow too.
So lastly I want to wish you all a Merry Christmas if you celebrate it. I want to thank you for reading my blog. I wish you all good things in the coming year 2013!
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| our Christmas Cactus |
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